Recently I wrote in my journal.
Making a Scapegoat doll is an opportunity to participate in your own healing; a way of addressing your woundedness. When you are making your Scapegoat dolls you are having a first hand experience with healing your pain. In the process you examine your own wounds, look at your weaknesses and recognize and develop your strengths. When you face and integrate the messages of your disease you allow a healing dimension to emerge - that of the Inner Healer.
Making these Shadow dolls is a creative act of healing. It has the potential to increase your awareness of the patterns and energies in you life. Healing doll are symbolic aids that connect to the maker and her creative, intuitive, healing imagination.
A Scapegoat doll story
It was pretty obvious that I'm my worst enemy in that regard. Anyway, when I stripped everything away two things surfaced.
1) I've always had an underlying fear of being vulnerable, exposed, judged; people might find the "real me "unacceptable, stupid, awkward, etc.
2) This came as a startling insight while journaling. I was journaling and giving voice to my negative self talk saying things like; "I'm not smart enough, good enough, creative enough, articulate enough, and perfect enough." I suddenly focused on the word "enough". I looked up enough ="sufficient for the purpose, adequate to satisfy a need or calling". Not better than others, not perfect, but sufficient and adequate!
I then tried to define my purpose/calling. I decided bottom line; the purpose of my life is to experience living this life as an opportunity to learn, grow, love. I suddenly realized that I don't need to be anything more than my imperfect human self to be sufficient and adequate to meet that purpose and calling. So as long as I can stay open and share the lessons I learn from my fumbling, stumbling journey than I am enough. No other judgment is necessary.
As a sidelight to that, I had a deep realization of the insanity of comparing myself to anyone else. Every person has different genes, parents, families, personalities, opportunities, gifts, weaknesses, environments, etc. How can it make any sense at all to compare two people who are so completely different in every way? So the question should be; "Am I sufficient and adequate to learn from this life and share what I learn with others?" NOT, "Do I compare favorably to others?"
With all this in mind my doll turned out very simple. A soft, naked (vulnerable) girl tying herself in knots trying to avoid being exposed for whom she really is (imperfect, human), blindfolded (blind) to the fact that she is all she needs to be, which ironically is imperfect and human.
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My book, The Healing Doll Way: A Guided Process Creating Art Dolls for Self-Discovery, Awareness and Transformation (published by Beavers Pond Press) won two Next Generation Indie Book Awards.
Winner under catagory of Body, Mind and Spirit NonFiction and
Finalist for Best Overall Design Non-Fiction
I am hoping to attend the awards ceremony in Washington, D.C. on June 21, 2019.
The Next Generation Indie Book Awards is the largest international book awards program for indie authors and independent publishers. In its thirteenth year of operation, the Next Generation Indie Book Awards was established to recognize and honor the most exceptional independently published books in over 70 different categories, for the year, and is presented by Independent Book Publishing Professionals Group (www.IBPPG.com ) in cooperation with Marilyn Allen of Allen O'Shea Literary Agency.
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Kobe Feeling Dolls
They are back! You may have known them as Numbfull and the Fulls. Their new name is Kobe Feelings Dolls.
I have found someone to sew them. There are two new characters: Love and Golden Child. New, updated User's Manual and Coloring Masters. Stay tuned. I'll let you know when everything is ready to go.
My printed book. The Healing Doll Way, arrived in mid August, two weeks earlier than expected. I quickly learned that there is lots to learn about self publishing. In my case, I ordered and paid for my books had to quickly move them from a warehouse to a storage unit near my home - there were 70 boxes each weighing 41 pounds. This meant that I had to find someone to move them. I used College Muscle Movers and they had them moved within an hour.
I had to create a shipping station in my home. During August and September I have learned how to prepare books for shipping, use www.stamps.com to send, and keep records of sales. I've sent out about 150 books. Thank you to all who purchased. My book is on Amazon as well. Sales there were even more robust. A big thank you to my publisher Beavers Pond Press in Bloomington, Minnesota for fulfilling orders.
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